Will I Ever Get to Relax???

I feel like I have been on pins and needles for months. 

Waiting for cycle to begin after false polyp surgery...will I be able to finish IVF before school starts?
Waiting for retrieval...are there any eggs to retrieve?

Waiting for embryo transfer...will any eggs be viable and strong enough to implant?
Waiting for pregnancy test...will it be positive?
Waiting for ultrasound...is there a sac, heartbeat, baby??
Waiting for 2nd ultrasound...is there STILL a heartbeat?

RELAX
PRAISE THE LORD

For 3 days at least....

Today I had my appointment with my OB. She explained that normally they would do an ultrasound right there in her office but since she had a CONCERN abut the LOCATION of the BABY,
she would like for me to go to the hospital to have it done, as their machines are better than the ones in her office.
She was looking over the pictures and feels that the baby is located dangerously close to the fallopian tube. It is definitely implanted in the uterus but it is near the entrance where the tube and uterus meet. The uterine lining is much thinner in that location making it difficult to support a baby at times. Basically, there will be nothing that can be done if her suspicions are proven accurate. Lots of monitoring and prayer that my uterus doesn't RUPTURE. Great.

Well there it is...I don't know why I expect ANYTHING on this journey to go smoothly.
I guess I am just meant to hit every single teeny tiny bump in the road.

I am not sure what to say except we would love your prayers. I am not sure of the exact ultrasound date but it will be within the next week or so. Please pray for peace for me, but more importantly for a healthy baby. A baby that will be able to be carried to full term. 

We've Graduated!

We have officially graduated from UCSD! Here is our certificate to prove it, signed by all of the nurses and doctors who have helped us along the way.

What an amazing yet scary feeling to be officially released from their care. We no longer have to drive all the way to La Jolla several times a week, yay! I no longer have to do injections each and every night around 6:00,  double yay!!
On the other hand, we are really going to miss all of the wonderful people we got to see on a regular basis. It has been the most amazingly positive experience and we are so very thankful to have been able to get treatment from THE BEST.

Our ultrasound was nothing short of amazing. I am now nine weeks and the baby is the size of a cherry or grape. We got to hear the heartbeat loud and clear at 175 beats per minute. Overwhelming joy.

In the picture the baby was in a bit of a sideways position so it is difficult to see but the left circle area is the head (at this stage the head does take up almost half of the body...or that could just be the fact that we have huge heads in our family...) The right circle area in the rest of the body. The connecting line from left to right is the umbilical cord. The tiny little circle at the top of the screen is the yolk sac. Anyway, you are probably thinking, yeah sure it just looks like a white blob. Yes, I agree but a perfect miracle of a white blob. (:

We are blessed and so excited everything is going well.

I am still super tired and am experiencing a very unsettled stomach off and on throughout the day. I cannot eat anything warm for breakfast and have been a bit addicted to Raisin Bran. I eat it for breakfast and also have had it a few days after work as a mid-afternoon snack. It is delicious to me right now which is rare since I am normally not a cereal eater, let alone Raisin Bran.
I have also been craving sour candy. I have eaten a whole bag of Sour Gummy Worms and a pack of Sour Punch Straws in the past couple days. For some reason the sour seems to override my queasy stomach.

Headed to home fellowship to get our worship and bible study on! We are so lucky to serve such a loving God. 

Is it September 22nd yet???

Everything is going well...I think...I just want it to be the 22nd so that I can see this little baby blueberry (that's how big it was a few days ago) on the screen again and be reassured everything is ok. 

I have lots of people around me who are pregnant and they seem to have so many more symptoms than me, so of course the bad voice inside of me that creeps up every now and then says there must not be a baby in there.

I am still tired. Am I more tired than usual? I don't know! Shaun says absolutely yes, but then again he is always the positive voice I need so I don't totally trust him. Haha

I have had quite a few moments of dizziness and this morning I was nauseas on and off all morning and especially felt it while driving to work.
**Note to self: put a bag or something in the car, so I don't have to use my lunchbox**

Thank you all for the prayers and constant love through Facebook, text messages and email. You are amazing and I am so thankful to have such wonderful friends and family.

On the 22nd I have another ultrasound. If everything is looking good then my wonderful doctor and nurse will release me from their care and I will begin normal visits through my OBGYN. No more driving to La Jolla and most importantly...
NO MORE PROGESTERONE SHOTS! Yay!

Keep praying, God is good. 

Joy!

Everything went well today and we saw our ONE perfect little baby!

I have a video but it is not posting for some reason! 

The doctor explained that at 5 weeks 6 days we should expect to see a gestational sac and sometimes a yolk sac but it is often times too early for the heartbeat...

 We got to see a very clear gestational sac, yolk sac, and a beautifully fluttering heartbeat! Praise the Lord! It was amazing to see the tiny little beat of our baby's heart. Wow. Words cannot express what a wonderful experience it was for both Shaun and I. 

And...I won the bet! It is only 1! Shaun will be getting to work on the crown moulding for the soon to be nursery since that was my half of the wager (; Thanks babe!

What a great day! We go back in a couple weeks when I will be 8 1/2 weeks along and they will do another ultrasound and then assuming everything looks good, I will stop the progesterone injections and be handed off to my normal OBGYN for the remainder of our pregnancy. 

Renewed & Ready

We are leaving in about an hour and a half to go and see our little baby(s) on the screen for the first time and I am so excited! 

Today we will find out how many little babes are in there and we might even be able to see heartbeats (although it may be a bit early for that). 

Shaun and I have a bet going...

I am convinced it is one and he is convinced it is twins. 

We shall see in about 2 hours who wins! I don't care if there are 4 in there as long as I see SOMETHING on that screen. 

Whatever it is, I know it is exactly what God wants for us so I will be perfectly fine with it. 

I  took another test last night because I let my paranoia get to me and I thought that if it was negative I would be able to better prepare myself for today. Stupid, I know. 

And, it was perfectly positive anyway. 

This morning I am feeling renewed in the peace of the Lord. I am joyful and feeling so blessed to have a Lord and Savior who loves me even when I am weak and undeserving. I have an amazing husband who makes me laugh every day and is going to make the most amazing dad and we are BLESSED. 

I am committing this day and this appointment to the Lord and holding tight to His promises. No matter what happens we will praise Him.