It is almost laughable but here we are again waiting 2 business days to hear wether my pregnancy is "viable" and all I can think about is my little kumquat sized baby bending and moving back and forth on the screen. It was amazing. Arms moving. Body bending at the waist and doing "sit-ups" as the ultrasound tech said. Miracle.
We walked into the room expecting to see my OB, and instead we get just a ultrasound tech. She tells us that we will be doing an external and internal ultrasound and she is going to take several pictures. These pictures will then be analyzed by an x-ray person and sent to my OB who will then contact me within 2 business days. It was all business. Complete silence in the room until I asked her if she could tell me anything. Of course she said no, but she said she would give me a few pictures and that the heartbeat was 167 bpm (which is good). I thanked her and laid there exchanging silent looks with Shaun through my tear-filled anxious eyes as we watched our baby on the screen.
It is so hard to think that the little baby we saw moving and healthy might not be for much longer.
I am trying with all of my might not to think that way.
I am holding that tiny moving body in my mind and focusing on the positive.
I just wish I did not have to wait 2 days. I am learning to lean fully on Him once again and we are hoping and praying that today was not the last time we will be seeing that precious baby on the screen bouncing around.
Here he/she is in all his/her alien baby glory.
Top View: Head, Belly, Arms, and Legs
(ignore the glare and my head in the background, I snapped this on my phone from the original picture)
Side View Left to Right: Head, Belly, Hand, Bottom/Legs
Heading to bed! Yes, it is only 7:20 but I am exhausted. Praying for Friday!
4 comments:
at least your ultrasound wasn't on a friday or something and you'd have to wait the whole weekend PLUS two business days!? Maybe that makes you feel better? ;) I know, i know...it doesn't. Your baby is beautiful and I am praying for you three constantly. I love you all so much! God is making a miracle here. He will be glorified through all of this, and you will be strengthened. Praying for protection for you all and that someday we'll all get to squeeze that beautiful little kumquat!! :) Love you!!!! XOXO
You have to be the most inspirational person I have ever had the privilege to be so close to. Britnie, please know that the 3 of you are in my thoughts and prayers daily. LOVE YOU!! XOXOXOXOXO
Thanks girls!! Those prayers mean so much more than you will ever know. XOXO
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