Years ago when I thought I controlled my life and could plan it the way I wanted I would have said that I would be done having ALL of my kids before I was 30. Then it changed to..ok, well I will have at least one baby before I am 30...well, I will at least get pregnant before I am 30...
Not happening. I turned 30 today and to be honest I was a bit surprised that I didn't even think twice about being 30 and not having any kids!
A year ago I might have thought that this day would be particularly difficult if we were still struggling to conceive but that was before I found PEACE. I feel blessed by all that God has done for us and given us and turning 30 does not change that.
I was inspired and renewed by the book of James today.
(1:2-4) I can change my perspective...instead of thinking about being the oldest mom on the block I can be a more mature, more complete mom someday by learning to persevere through the past 3 years of trials.
And, I guess I'll be a bit older too than I had originally planned but I'm ok with that. Haha (;
(1:12) It is the most amazing feeling to read this verse not being pregnant or having a baby and feeling like I have already earned the crown. Deep down I feel like we have already won the prize and we haven't even gotten what we have been praying for yet!? God is pretty awesome.
Thank you for your prayers!
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